Is it just me or is it easier to be fearless and take risks when you are younger? Growing up very little scared me. I'd try new things, put myself out there, go for whatever I wanted. Even after college, I was not scared to take a risk, move to a new city and meet new people {including my hubs!}. But now fast forward to being married with two kids, I cannot even remember the last time I took a risk or put myself out there. I cannot remember the last time I had butterflies in my stomach over anticipation of something really great {other than childbirth of course!}. But that's all about to change.
I've got butterflies fluttering around like you wouldn't believe! I'm taking a risk, putting myself out there and doing something I've never done before. I'm attending
Alt Summit next week. Alt is the place where design and lifestyle bloggers come together to share ideas and connect. And I cannot believe
I'm going! I oohed and aahed over all the pictures and posts last year after
this gal attended and told her I was absolutely tagging along with her this year. Well we signed up back in August and booked our room together, and truth be told, I was more excited just to go on a girls trip with her, ooh and aah over all the other fabulous creatives and maybe {hopefully} learn a thing or two. I kind of even questioned if I should be going considering I consider myself just a wanna-be blogger. This isn't my livelihood, rather just a fun outlet for me to document our crazy little life {and allow the grandmas to see pics!}. But as the months passed and Alt was nearing I started getting more and more excited about the conference itself and all the incredibly talented people I would meet {and hopefully learn from}. I could not wait to just soak up all their wisdom, creativity and fabulousness. Unfortunately, my friend cannot go now, so I was faced with whether to cancel myself and put it off until next year or put myself out there and do something for me on my own.
Since becoming a mom, I seem to have lost a little piece of myself. I have so many dreams and desires for my children that I forget I used to have dreams and desires for myself. Do not get me wrong. I am living a dream right now being able to stay at home with my boys and raise them, watch them grow, color, throw the ball, wipe spit up, change diapers, laugh and sing all day everyday. But if I'm being honest I do long for a little something for myself, and I am hoping that Alt will help me figure out how this little blog just might be that.
So here's to putting myself out there. Being vulnerable. Taking a risk. Fingers crossed I won't suddenly become a wallflower and just go up to my room each night, order room service and watch Bravo {although that does sound pretty glamorous to this worn out mama!}. Here's hoping I find a new friend or two, learn a whole lot and oh, have a ton a fun. Now to just figure out what I'm wearing...
